My 100lb Weight Loss Journey: How I Finally Kept It Off — WeightSnap

After years of losing and regaining the same weight, here’s how I finally got the weight off and my plan to keep it off once and for all.

If your anything like me you dont have that many pictures of yourself from your weight gain years, I mean you might have some but I bet you dont look at them often, maybe ever for that matter. I have years where I have no pictures of myself, its kind of sad to be honest. And it’s literally just from being embarrassed of how I looked at the time.

The old saying that the camera adds 10lbs…I could only wish, to me it felt like it added 50, I couldnt even smile in a picture, knowing if I did my cheeks would look enormous, my double chin would seemingly grow to twice its size.

I became the photographer, whether it was family gatherings or just outings with friends, if we wanted a picture Id volunteer to take it, simply to avoid being in it, when it was impossible to avoid and I ended up in one or two you can bet I never actually saw these pictures, I avoided them like the plague. I was hiding from my own reality, what I did not see, I was not.

Foolish I know, reminds me of people choosing not to go to the doctor, they know something is wrong or could be wrong but are too afraid to find out what, and sometimes its too late once they get checked out.

Looking back on it now I can actually see how this affected people around me, I mean not negatively per se but the way I would hide in the back of family pictures, or simply refuse to take any with my partner, I can definitely see how that would hurt them, especially my Mom, she would always want nice family pictures, we have so few and I would always fight tooth and nail…lets just take one later, “not right now, later though!” hoping everyone would forget, and sometimes we actually did forget. I definitely feel bad about it and regret it immensely now.

The same with my partner, when I gained the weight I would refuse to take pictures with her, she always would want them taken and I just wouldn’t do it, ever…we have been together going on 14 years now and not a word of a lie there is like a 10 year period where we dont have pictures with each other. We have pictures of places we have been together, and pictures of just her (me taking the picture) but literally none with us…10 years…sad really.

About 5 years ago we moved provinces, I was probably around 270lbs at that point, I cant know for certain as I avoided the scale typically, and certainly wasnt in the habit of tracking my weight back then. But thats besides the point…my parents visited for a week, my Mom wanted to take our picture in front of our house (you know the kind, one of those cutesy first time home owner pictures) reluctantly I agreed, (at least im wearing a black shirt I thought to myself – lol).